life in the navy
being in the navy. hmmm what can i say well as of now im not liking it.. and its not because of an inability to conform and do what they want or take orders its just… i am missing so much at home, so much i hate that i missed more brithdays than i can count. a family member died ! i couldnt go to the funeral !!!
and of course most of all i miss my beautiful, loving, supportive girlfriend. she thinks she makes me more sad by being with me and makes it harder for me in this training but honestly without her idk if i could make it through this course i really dont she keeps me pushing through. i have wanted to quit a couple of times while runing and the only reason i didnt is because of her. i would tell myself “i cant quit lauren will be so disappointed in me and will think im weak. i need to show her how strong i am..”
or i would think ” if u just keep running she will give you the best kisses just keep running u will see her sooner if u just suck it up just suck it up nick stop being a little baby she wont love u if ur weak ” i dont why i think that but i honestly think she wont when im running.
i want lauren to be proud of me so bad and i havent the slightest clue why i mean i want her to be proud of me more than my own father. thats not normal a young man should seek aprroval from his father not his girlfriend !!
i guess its just how much i love her
on another note sunday has become my favorite day of the week by far !!! and the only reason for that is because i get to see lauren !!! hahaha im like a little boy at christmas no joke i get all jittery ! i smile when we chat pretty much the whole time and lauren is always asking y are u smiling? i just tell her ” idk i just love seeing you ” and its true i tell her she is beautiful all the time. probably too much i try to say other things but honestly all i can think of is ” man she is soo beautiful ” haha and that is what comes out.
its frustrating though because she really doesnt realize how gorgeous she really is. its like trying to convince a muslim radical that he likes america…. she just doesnt believe me ! lauren has the softest skin i have ever felt, legs that are so toned woman would kill to have her legs!! the cutest toes ever. her eyes haha when i skype with her i cant see them very well so i have to go on facebook to see and there i can just look at her eyes for hours i have acually done that ! i know its a little creepy. teeth are everything and well of course she has perfect teeth she might not think so but there white as hell. lips well that is what really makes sad on sunday. i see them and they speak to me and say plz oh plz kiss me nick and i cant … i cant kiss her . i cant kiss her. laurens hair have u seen it ? if so i shouldnt have to say anything else!
enough of the phyical stuff on my girlfriend.
dont worry im almost done with this crazy rant
when it comes to personality , lauren surly has one thats hard to beat ! she cares so much about me. probably as much as my mother hahah. when i get sick she feel sick when im having a hard time she is right there with me. even tho shes 2000 miles away. if i could sum up what she is with one word it would be pure everything about her is pure. and that is just so attractive to me. i never wanna hear her cry when she does it breaks my heart and if someone is the cause of that like her friends i wanna call them and yell soo bad but i know lauren would be pretty pissed if i did. hearing her curse which is very rare but when she does i think its cute haha i tell her otherwise. since i miss her so much i could listen to her all day. i love to hear how her day was no matter much it sucked for her. cause i care i really care about her day i wanna make sure she doing ok.
hearing her get mad or workedup over something is pretty cute and i just smile and listen until she is done i dont mind it im glad knowing she is releaving some stress.
i miss seeing lauren smile and laugh, i love her laugh i really do . i am in love with lauren marie salles.
