For My Parents. (~_^) You Need To Hear This

Almost to the top of the hill

Lauren when i see her pictures my heart still hurts a bit. partly because I want us together but the other part i just miss the memories we shared. i look forward to the day i see her picture and not  feel anything. she doesn’t deserve the love I have. 

im so tired. of this. GOD is helping me though he really is i need to read his word more though but i know he is helping me. i wonder if lauren is even getting closer to god?? she said” that was one of the reasons.. i pray for her nightly i hope she finds herself. while she does that i am going to make new friendships with the people i work with and lea. the girl at the gym were playing tennis tomorrow and the water aerobics hahah i think it will be fun. 

lea cook!

i had a great date it was.. well i honestly cant say it was just amazing. im really tired ill type more tomorrow. 

DATE

I  asked a girl that works at the gym if she wanted to go on a date she said sure! haha she was blushing, I was nervous too though. were going to play tennis she says she is going to kick my butt haha. she is 25 seems really sweet i cant wait to get to know her better. I hope she doesn’t kick my butt to bad. ill keep you informed on how it goes were playing tennis with LEE.

not so hot.

I saw a new picture of Lauren today on accident. she looks so pretty I hate this. ahhhhhhhh. one day one day I will think of her and my heart wont hurt. ill let you know when that day/month/year is…..

So they say….

lwellen:

Sense of smell is the strongest associated with memory, but have you ever stumbled on an old picture of you & an old friend and lost it? Just a picture… just the faces you’re making while the picture was taking. My heart’s breaking. 

All the time

We are glass.

i will go further in detail later.